Week one

I made it a week without my husband! I feel good, I feel like I am gonna kick this deployment's ass! Today, Rea literaly started to smile before she opened her eyes. I love it when she is happy, and I especially love it when she wakes up happy. I think it sets my mood for the day. If I didn't have Rea, I know that I wouldn't be this strong, I know that I wouldn't be the woman I am today if I didn't have her. When we found out that Zach was leaving in less than 48 hours, it was so hard to look at the positive, it was so hard to think about anything but the fact that I wouldn't see him for a year, and the thought of him possibly losing his life, broke my heart. But he reminded me that everything happens for a reason. We have been married for almost a year, and didn't get a real wedding. We got married at the court house in Kotzebue with only our closest friends and family. I have been dreaming about my wedding since I was a kid, and when Zach decided to join the army, we knew that we had to be married. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being married to him. If we had the choice to wait and have a real wedding though, I would have in a heart beat. Now that he's deployed, I get to plan my dream wedding! He should be home before our second anniversary, and with the extra money that will be coming in from the deployment, we can afford it. I am very excited to start planning, and I can't wait to be back in Alaska.
Today I hung out with Chrissy and Cameron again, we went to the PX to check out a new cupcake shop we had discovered on Facebook, and it was amazing. I ate a red velvet cupcake, and so did Chrissy. I really wanna go on Tuesday though, because they make strawberry cupcakes on Tuesday. We also picked up a shirt for her sister and a couple of other things. I wanted to buy myself a Fort Hood shirt, but I didn't find any I liked. We came back to Chrissy's and I dyed her under layer of hair with the same brown as the top was, to mellow the BRIGHT red out. It looks much better now. The kids played the day away, and we made twice baked potatoes. Also, I made some musk ox steaks. Chrissy had never had them, and she didn't like it, but I did. We also made vanilla pudding, with bananas and nilla wafers. I was so stuffed earlier, and I still feel like I am full. We watched a movie called Cyber Bully, it's about a high school girl getting hacked on a page kind of like facebook, and it turned into a huge thing in her school. It was pretty good. I don't think something to that extent would really happen in a school, but I would never know. We watched the Glee Project, which I LOVE. I love Glee too! I haven't left her house yet, but decided to blog before I went home, because I know when I get home, I will not be in the mood to blog. Rea wasw asleep, but now she's all over the place... She will be ready to fall asleep as soon as we get into the car though. This next week will be full of packing, and swimming (hopefully) ... I am far past ready for bed, so I am headed home.

Dear Deployment,
I made it through the first week. You have put me through a lot this week, but I am still happy. I know that I just started and I know that every week will not be as easy as this week. But I do know that with the right attitude and right support, I will never be broken. I will not be ruined. I will make it through this year. I will not allow myself to feel sorry for our family. I know there are people who have it worst. Love, Elsa...