Today was my "going away" thing. Chrissy, Brittany, Dave, Keren, Shawn, the kids, and I went to the lake to grill hot dogs and swim the day away. Rea woke up freakishly late this morning, so I had time to shower all by myself for the first time since Zach left. It was nice, but I would rather shower with Zach and Rea then shower alone. It was nice to have time to fix my hair though, if you know me, you know that my hair is always a mess. I french braided it in the front and put it in a pony tail. We came over to Chrissy's house so that we could ride with her to the lake in her van. Of course we were running late, I feel like I am never on time now that I have a child. We got to the lake around noon, and headed straight for the water, but as we were walking down, Dave was walking back up. Apparently the life guards needed a break. We suffered in the sun with antsy kids until the break was over. As soon as the whistle was blown we took the kids to the water. Rea loved it. She loves water, if I let her, she would sit in the bath tub all day long. Cameron and Mason were more interested in the sand and running away from their mommies. There are only certain places where we could swim, and there were minnows everywhere. Keren and Brittney kept getting tickled by them. They didn't come near me and Chrissy as much, I think because we were constantly moving with the kids. It wasn't a big deal until we saw a big black "thing" in the water. Then a little head stuck out! Then, it went back under water! We came running out of the water after that. I think it was a turtle, but we can't be sure because it wasn't close enough to us. Thank goodness! After the turtle, Dave started cooking the hot dogs and we started snacking on chips and other things. I had made macaroni salad last night, but we forgot forks. So when I went to rinse my feet off, I asked the little shop. They told me "we only have limited supply, I can't give them to you" So we didn't get to eat macaroni salad while we were there. We hung out, for a while, but it was nasty hot out and the kids were fussy, so we started getting ready to leave. We had planned on hanging out there all day, but thought we would only last an hour. We ended up being there for about three and a half hours. When we came back to Chrissy's, she put the macaroni salad in the fridge and as soon as it was cool enough I ate a huge bowl. I love macaroni salad, I will be eating it for lunch everyday this week! Chrissy leaves to Michigan tomorrow, and I wont be able to see her and Cameron before we head back up to Alaska. I'm gonna miss them, Rea is gonna miss them too. We made a carrot cake, and Chrissy and I both ate two huge pieces. Now we are watching True Blood while the babies sleep, I am gonna stay the night here. She leaves super early and I am gonna stay here anyway so I can fully empty my house and clean it. Thank goodness for good friends. Zach got to call earlier and he sounded well. I read a blog about a lady who's husband passed away in Afghanistan. Reading things like that terrifies me. I need to not read things like that, but I am drawn to reading about other women's experiences and how they cope with what happened. Sometimes I cry, just because, and I think that's okay. I think it's okay to break down every once in a while. I tear up when I watch commercials for surprise homecoming shows. I'm so emotional when Zach is gone. I feel like I did when I was pregnant, like someone could say a simple word and i'll just cry, just because. I hope I sleep well tonight, I have been having a tough time feeling like I slept really well. When I wake up, I still feel tired, and most days I feel groggy all day. Hopefully I will be better once i'm back home.
Dear Deployment,
I would appreciate getting some sleep please (= I know your out to ruin people and make family members of soldiers lives crazy. I guess even if you don't let me sleep, you won't ruin me. I'll still win, I will still be madly in love with my husband when he comes home. Goodnight deployment, you suck. Love, Elsa...
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