Day 4

Today started out sucky. I woke up to some dramatic text messages from a person who had no business saying anything at all to me. I woke up feeling like crap, and being angry at everything that had been going on. I kept wondering to myself, "when is all of this bull shit gonna end?" I have been really feeling the pressure from some people these last couple of days, and today I was at my end. I was ready to ruin relationships for LIFE, and then I thought about how much stress that I already have and how much stress Zach already has, and I decided to not worry about anything anymore. I decided that I was gonna ignore all the rude remarks and ignore all of the negitivity. I don't need any of that. I don't need drama. I need to concentrate on getting ready to head back up to Alaska, and I need to be happy that my family and friends are so supportive of everything I do. I found a lady on Facebook, who had moving boxes for free, so I picked some up today. I didn't have any tape though, so I haven't really started packing yet. Rea though, found them VERY entertaining. She crawled all over them and was so excited about it. I swear next Christmas I am gonna get her a bunch of empty boxes. While she was entertained, I put up our couch, rug, her dresser thing, and my washer and dryer for sale. Hopefully they all sell before I leave, because basically, what I can't fit in the car, I am not taking. I was so excited when my doorbell rang and I opened it to find the FedEx man with a Tupperware box for me!! I love getting new Tupperware, especially when it's free to me! This afternoon was not very eventful, Rea danced around and watched cartoons while I cleaned house and sat at my computer... We spent most of the evening at my friend Brittany's house, she and my friend Chrissy both have sons who are the same age as Rea, and they love playing together. Sometimes they fight, and sometimes they play really well... Today, they were pretty good I thought. My friend Chrissy's son Cameron, is a typical boy, he gets into EVERYTHING! He is super adorable though, and my friend Brittany's son, Mason, mostly keeps to himself, and is a lot quieter. Rea is kind of in the middle. She has her days where she will play in a corner, quiet all day. Then she has days where she gets into anything and everything. Usually when I am in a bad mood, or don't really feel like getting out of bed. Anyway, I always love when the three of them play together, because it wears Rea out, and she will sleep all night, and even sleep in sometimes. We didn't get home until late and she was REALLY REALLY tired. As soon as I lay down with her, she wiggled around and acted like she wanted to nurse, but before I could even nurse her, she was asleep with her head by my knees and toes in my nose. I forgot to take the trash to the curb, and I am still deciding whether or not to do it tonight, or to just wait until morning when it's light... Who am I kidding? I am not gonna do it tonight, I am terrified of the dark! I have a long day tomorrow, so I am hitting the hay, hopefully. I always say that i'm gonna go to bed, but when I actually lay down, I always get on my stupid phone. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my iPhone, but I am always on it! It's too addicting.

Dear Deployment,
Today started out rough, today I thought I might lose it, and then I had an attitude change, which completely turned it around. With the help of some friends, some super chocolate ice cream, and a red popcicle of course. You don't beat me today. I am going to bed content, even though I didn't get to hear my husband say I love you, I know that we look up at the same sun, the same moon, and the same stars. I know that he thinks about us all the time, and you can't change my mind, so don't even try. Love, Elsa...