happy days

Today is a good day. I found out that I have a job interview on Friday morning at nine. I also found a new winter jacket! I am very excited about the job interview, if it goes well, I may even get to start working as soon as next week, which makes me happy.

Hopefully once I start working, we can pay off all of our bills, and then I can start saving for our WEDDING ceremony!! I decided that we will be having a very small and personal vow renewal in Anchorage. Then our reception will be bigger with all of our friends and family. This way, we will be saving money, but we will still get to have the wedding we always wanted. I am very excited to start planning and I am especially excited to pick out a dress! I have to say, that I was that little girl that would dream about her wedding and say that I am gonna wear this and we are gonna do this and there will be these people there. I married Zachary because I am madly and deeply in love with him, however, since he was joining the army, we got married sooner and without much planning. My parents and family and a few close friends came to the court house in Kotzebue for the wedding. I could not have been a happier blushing bride in my blue jeans and mukluks. That, however, didn't end my dream about having a real wedding. At first I wanted a huge giant grand wedding where there were hundreds of people and a huge dress and lights and all kinds of crazy things. I went back and fourth between all kinds of different ideas, but what really stuck with me was my grandmother's backyard. It isn't very large, however it's romantic and beautiful! After realizing that a wedding isn't about all of the people and glitz and presents, I decided that having a small family wedding would be perfect for us. I do however want to have a nice big reception with pretty flowers and a huge cake! There are some things a girl can't give up right? Even though I would be perfectly happy not having a wedding ceremony, I am very very excited for this. Zach will have just come home from his deployment, which I think will make it extra special, since he will have not seen a lot of his family in almost two years! Enough about the wedding that will happen next year.

Rea has been talking, a LOT more than before. She is saying words I didn't even think I taught her! She is so smart, it drives me crazy sometimes, but I love her all the same! Her dad would be so proud, I try to video as much as she will let me, but she gets shy in front of the camera. She also is picky about what she says in front of who. The other day we were visiting Maija, and she wouldn't say "buck buck buck" and flap her wings like a chicken, which she does ALL the time running around our house! She had also done it in front of Dean and everyone else, but she would NOT do it for Maija! Yesterday, I gave her a little bowl of cheese its while she was watching TV. I was browsing the internet and just hanging out, before I knew it she was sleeping!! With a cheese it in one hand and the other hand in her bowl! It was the cutest thing, I love moments like that. I just wish her daddy was here to see it!

Dear Deployment,
Because of you, Zach can't see our daughter grow right in front of his eyes. He has to rely on the internet and phone to keep up with her. Something happens everyday, shoot, something happens every hour that I would have wanted him to see. Even though he isn't here physically, he is always there for me emotionally. I am so lucky to have a man like him in my life, not very many people get so lucky. You can't ruin the relationship between us, and we will always back each other up. Love, Elsa..